There is no middle ground in any aspect of salvation. You accept it wholly or accept it not.

Either there is a gap between you and your brothers and sisters, or you are as one.

There is no in between, no other choice, and no allegiance to be split between the two. A split allegiance is but faithlessness to both, and merely sets you spinning round, to grasp uncertainty at any straw that seems to hold some promise of relief.

~ Jesus, A Course in Miracles C28.VII.2.7